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Friday, December 9th, 2005
3:32 pm	.:HIV, Aids & Other Std’s:. ............................................................................................................ Have you ever met someone who has changed your life within moments simply describing to you their journey of life. I have. And he remained a very close friend of mine until he died of complications dealing with the HIV virus. You see most people take unprotected sex as a joke never viewing or understand the effects HIV, Aids and other Std’s can have on your life. Never comprehending that if they would’ve simply used a condom they wouldn’t be where they are. But with these diseases does come true wisdom so anyone who is HIV+ or has full blown Aids or has even been effected by an Std of any kind know that right here you have a true support of the great fight to better this world. Current Mood: Crappy Current Music: "One Wish" by Ray J
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Thursday, December 8th, 2005
1:41 am	.:Karma:. There exist an endless cycle in which the world balances itself by causing you to learn of life through the pain and pleasure in which you place upon others. This cycle is called Karma. Beware of your actions for the games you play with others will bite you in the ass. Hey after all I guess this is the way to show consequence to the golden rule (Treat Others How You'd Like To Be Treated). Current Mood: La,La La Current Music: "Leave (Get Out): by Yoyo
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Wednesday, December 7th, 2005
3:38 pm	.:Racism and Gang Violence:. Why bother wasting your time to hurt someone at all especially someone not of your skin color or of your ethnic background. At the end of the day we are all flawed individuals, we all have problems, when cut we all bleed, and when we’re sad we all shed tears. We are all simply human .We all contain emotions. .:Gang Violence:. Its funny because 20 years ago racism is something that honestly affected the world and the way it worked (don’t misunderstand me it does often still take place), but it saddens me more to see minorities kill other minorities for something or someone they feel will die for them. Living in the ghetto gang violence is very normal to me. Its scary how you can become so numb to something. When I’m told of something dealing with a situation similar to it, I have no reaction. I remember a time when clothes were just clothes and the color of your clothes were just that as well. To bad now... bloodshed of your own kind or the bloodshed of someone in the world who is cared for is much more important then simply for "Respect"? *Grow Up...Stop Shooting and Start Thinking...Stop Gang Violence* Current Mood: Grr!! Current Music: "Conciencia" by Aventura
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Monday, December 5th, 2005
3:35 pm	.:Friendship:. A true friend is someone who walks in when the rest of the world walks out. True friendship is a relationship without the sexual aspect of it all. See with a friendship must come just as much trust, love, understanding, and compromise as you’d place within a relationship. To true friends you can bare your soul and have confidence in yourself and in them that everything will remain between that party. Current Mood: crushed
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Saturday, December 3rd, 2005
3:36 pm	.:Sexuality:. In life no matter what good or bad you do judgment will always be placed upon you. What people need to realize is someone sexuality doesn’t define who they are as a person. People should never life their lives in fear do to what others say or feel. If your gay, bisexual, lesbian, transgender or transsexuals always respect yourself before you decide to live your life based on fear due to others opinions. Besides at night when you lay your head to rest not one person must deal with your problems or concerns but yourself therefore why live life based on what others feel or think. No one deals with your struggle but you, so why allow them to have full control? Current Mood: Curiosity killed the cat Current Music: "Because Of You" by Kelly Clarkson
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Tuesday, November 29th, 2005
3:28 pm	.:Love Making:. Sex is just sex, right . People seem to look at sex so ignorantly. With all intercourse there is some type of emotional connection. True love making is indescribable passion with an unbreakable emotional connection. Its felt from the heart. Its not simply about have that orgasm and calling it a day. But we all do choose are own paths anyhow. If only people would understand the destruction it can cause. Me being the Virgin I am loves to talk about this topic. HAHAHA!! Current Mood: Giddy Nicca
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Monday, November 28th, 2005
10:55 am	.:Relationships:. I cant stress more how every relationship must have flaws. See people always have this idea that they can create a perfect relationship and as much as I’d enjoy that it’s far from being true. First and foremost there is no such thing as perfect. It’s just a word man created so they can dream that one day they may live a life this way. More importantly love isn’t finding a perfect person, it’s seeing an imperfect person perfectly. Current Mood: Yea, Nicca Creativeness
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Sunday, November 27th, 2005
4:42 pm	.:Love:. Love..Wow truly where do I begin. I’ve been someone lucky enough to encounter love. Its just so unexplainable. Previously I tried my best to explain love and all that it may contain, but in every situation it is different. Love can be so many emotions and thoughts I honestly say I cant describe it to anyone. There is also another aspect of love in my opinion, in which I’ve never shared with others...Often love turns into pain. Whether it is the love of family, friends, or a lover often people abuse the power of being loved by you and can quickly turn into your enemy. Secrets, lies, abuse and many other things can destroy something care for so deeply. Current Mood: Creative AGAIN!! Current Music: "Joc's Voice" Grrr...
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Friday, November 25th, 2005
2:52 pm	.:Life:. With all that said and done I now choice to share with each of you my views on life. The purpose of this expression is simply so each of you have future understanding of myself & my lifestyle. As a child do you remember watching cartoons and thinking to yourself how much you wish you could fly, but truthfully knowing that was all unreal? Well as odd as this may seem life is much like a cartoon. There are bad guys and good guys. The bad guys making life more difficult and violent everyday. While the good guys simply live life the best way they possibly can. The bad envy the good so they bring them down in society. Then they are normal people who fit in between this all. People who have characteristics of both types of people. I myself am a normal person. Understanding how it feels to be a bad guy but also understanding how it is to be a good guy I simply fall in the category of the normal. Current Mood: Creative nicca Current Music: "Noche de Sexo" by Wisin Y Yandel and Aventura
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Tuesday, November 22nd, 2005
2:38 pm	UnSeenXposure I am a young lesbian minority living in the mean streets of Bridgeport, simply striving to be the best I can be. After all living in the ghetto achieving your dreams isn’t easy, is it? Life is complex for all to some degree. Most people don’t understand this due to the stereotypes in which we are all placed in. After all I’m just the bitch who lives by the projects. I’m confused about my lifestyle and what males can offer me, right!?! WRONG!! Its funny because for a long time in my life I didn’t want to be me. Being a homosexual is far to difficult. Endlessly wishing I was someone else, hell maybe even you .Until one day I came to the understanding that no matter how bad life may seem, no matter what outstanding obstacles we are faced with there is always worse then what we are going through. And with all that said, I’ve come to this. My world of expression and thoughts on life and all it contains. You see livejournal has allowed me to be the real me. Meeting people who showed me outstanding courage to be my true self helped me to exit that secret life I lived. For I was truly living two lives. One simply being a Puerto Rican Tease living like a “player” playing those so called "gangstas". And the other was crying deep inside knowing I was unhappy because that was just a facade and truthfully I was a closet case. So I let that go and decided to let my story be known. So here I am today known to you as UnSeenXposure living life to the best I can and trying my best to be happy. Current Mood: Hmm.. Current Music: "It's Like??" by Kelly Clarkson
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Monday, November 21st, 2005
4:05 pm	..Prostituded Luv.. I was thinking about her today. Kinda weird since she's always running through my head. It annoys me. HIGHLY!! I've been thinking about if I should get into a relationship with her or not, but no answer really comes into my head. Let's look at the pros and cons. Pro's: ~I'll always be satistfied. ~I know she's willing to do anything for me. ~She'll love me unconditionally. ~I can control her just by a look. Cons: ~She's a heartless bitch! ~She's a liar. ~She's a cheater. ~She has a goddamn baby who she mourns for now. Weird though I feel no remorse, real piss off huh? Got to go Lunch awaits.. Current Mood: I hate you Joc.
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Saturday, November 19th, 2005
2:50 pm	..::Intervention::.. Well, it's been a while and you know what, I dont miss it anymore then I should. Love is overrated, and I thrive of the heartbreak. I'm a cold, heartleass bitch because I feel no sorrow for the loss of her, it just kills me to know that I was basically forced into the relationship. She didn't stand up for anything "real." I believe she just used me as a cause to finally fight her mom. Current Mood: Sam E is watching me type! Current Music: "Noche de Sexo" by Wisin Y Yandel and Aventura
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Wednesday, November 16th, 2005
3:27 pm	..::Silence of the The Broken-Hearted::.. Me and my ex are talking again. I'm pist off cause I promised myself I wouldn't, she sent me some pics, and I think I've been lying to myself about not loving her anymore. As soon as I saw the pictures, my heart dropped, and I realized how much I missed her. *Sigh* This is her: Isn't she gorgeous??? Current Mood: I Miss Her. Current Music: "No Me Ames" Jennifer Lopez and Marc Anthony
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7:10 am	..::Hurting Sucks::.. My ex is sitting next to me and it's kind of annoying cause she's watching me type this, I just want to take a knife and stab her lol. Newest pic of her, I took it last night: Current Mood: I'm Sick I think Current Music: "Joc's Voice"
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Monday, November 14th, 2005
10:53 pm	Tuning my guitar So I get my guitar and I'm tuning it and everything right and I'm just about done when the phone rings. So I put my guitar down and go pick it up. This is how the conversation goes: Me:Hello Unknown: Hey, is there a girl named May-ra around? Me: Yes, indeed, this is her, who is this? Unknown: Listen, bitch, I heard that you were talking to my man. I don't like when little hoes like you be all up on a taken nigga.. Me: Ummm.... What would I want with your man? I'm... Her: My man looks good that's why! Me: Well, I'm not into people with third legs. Her: Oh, you think this is a fucking joke bitch! Me: No seriously I dont like dudes. Her: What you trying to say that you some faggot, some coochie biter? Me: Yep! Her: Oh my god,I'm so sorry Me: It's ok, happens a lot. Her: Well bye. Me: (hang up) Dumbass bitch! So I go back to tuning my guitar... Current Mood: La, La, La
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Friday, November 11th, 2005
1:11 am	..::Thanks Leslie and Samantha (And Angel)::.. ........................................................................................................................................... -----Dear Unknown I need to get this off my chest You see, I have an issue I'd like to get it out somehow But I don't want to be judged by you -----Signed, The Forgotten One -----Dear The Forgotten One Tell me dear, what is wrong? What's on your mind? That has gotten you so down? A solution we shall find -----Signed, Someone Who Cares -----Dear Someone Who Cares The problem is I've been hurt Touched in the wrong places But I'm too scared to tell I can picture the looks on peoples faces -----Signed, The Forgotten One -----Dear The Forgotten One I won't judge you for what's been done In me, you can confide I will listen to your fears Talk to me angel, don't hide -----Signed, Someone Who Cares -----Dear Someone Who Cares It's been going on for years I just want the pain to go away I don't want him to touch me At night, to God, I pray -----Signed, The Forgotten One -----Dear The Forgotten One You can't go on like this I can feel the pain in your words You must put an end to it Let your voice be heard -----Signed, Someone Who Cares -----Dear Someone Who Cares I can't tell anyone, you see Because I know he is sorry He didn't mean to do this He didn't want to hurt me -----Signed, The Forgotten One -----Dear The Forgotten One You must tell someone now Before it gets any worse For his bad deeds He should be cursed -----Signed, Someone Who Cares -----Dear Someone Who Cares It can't get worse than it already is The pain just won't go away I just want to pretend it never happened But the bad thoughts always stay -----Signed, The Forgotten One -----Dear The Forgotten One You can't put yourself through that pain You must talk to someone who can help I care about you, and I'm here Do this for me, if not for yourself -----Signed, Someone Who Cares -----Dear Someone Who Cares He didn't mean to hurt me though And see, this is my fault I could've stopped his sooner Everything is my fault -----Signed, The Forgotten One -----Dear The Forgotten One Don't talk like that angel There's nothing you could've done Face your problems, raise your voice And one day you'll see the sun -----Signed, Someone Who Cares -----Dear Someone Who Cares It is my fault though I could've screamed louder There is lots I could've done I could've kicked harder -----Signed, The Forgotten One -----Dear The Forgotten One You were but a child Didn't know right from wrong Now you're old enough to get help You just have to be strong -----Signed, Someone Who Cares The forgotten one never replied Much to the caring persons fear Wondering if she was OK Throughout all the years One day they got a letter No address and unmarked Opened it to find the story Of a journey the young girl had embarked -----Dear Someone Who Cares Thanks for all you have done You made me see I have to be strong And I couldn't never thank you enough You saved me, thanks again, so long -----Signed, The One You Saved Current Mood: I Love You Leslie and Sam E Current Music: "Stand Up For Love," by Destiny's Child
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Thursday, November 10th, 2005
8:17 pm	..::Who invited copiers anyways?!?::.. ........................................................................................................................................... So I write this for my english class and leave the paper on my desk thinking the teacher will pick it up. I leave and go to a G.S.A. meeting, and what happens...30 minutes later some girl comes up to me with a piece of paper and is like have you read this. So ME being nosey, takes it and starts reading, then I start screaming. My paper had been photo copied by a girl in my class dozens of times and sent around the school as if it were some chain letter. Then this girl who constantly gets on my nerves who forever has her tities out like she think she cute, said she wrote it and started taking credit for it. I was damn well near tears. To top it off my teacher got a copy and when I explaing it to her, she thought I was lying so I got a zero for my creative writing entry. Anyways since the essays been everywhere peep it: There are people who can walk away from you. And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you: LET THEM WALK I don’t want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone. If you’re still holding that phone, hang it up! That person has walked away from you on their own, meaning they didn’t want to stay.. DON’T BEG! When people can walk away from you: LET THEM WALK Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left. The bible said that, “They went out from us, but they were not of us; for if they had been of us, they would no doubt have continued with us: but they went out, that they might be made manifest that they were not all of us..” [1 John 2:19] KJV People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can’t make them stay. Let them go. And it doesn’t mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in your story is over. And you’ve got to know when people’s part in your story is over, so that you don’t keep trying to raise the already dead. You’ve got to know when it’s dead. You’ve got to know when it’s over. Let me tell you something. I’ve got the gift of good-bye. It’s the tenth spiritual gift, I believe in good-bye. It’s not that I’m hateful, it’s that I’m faithful, and I know whatever God means for me to have, He’ll give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I don’t need it. Stop begging people to stay. LET THEM GO! If you are holding on to something that doesn’t belong to you and was never intended for your life, then you need to. LET IT GO! If you are holding on to past hurts and pains... LET IT GO! If someone can’t treat you right, love you back, and see your worth...LET IT GO! If someone has angered you ... LET IT GO! If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge. LET IT GO! If you are involved in a wrong relationship, addiction, or something you know God doesn‘t approve of. LET IT GO!!! Think of it this way will that thing you’re involved with be able to make it to Heaven? Will it? No, huh…. LET IT GO!!! If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents.... LET IT GO! If you have a bad attitude...LET IT GO! If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself and God is telling you over and over "take your hands off of it," then you need to... LET IT GO!!! Current Mood: GRRR!!
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Wednesday, November 9th, 2005
4:33 pm	..::Penguin Love::.. Current Mood: I Love You Cristal
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Friday, November 4th, 2005
11:49 am	..::Hurting Sucks::.. ........................................................................................................................................... HAVE YOU EVER WONDERED WHICH HURTS THE MOST.... SAYING SOMETHING AND WISHING YOU HADN`T, OR SAYING NOTHING AND WISHING YOU HAD? Well I fucked up, and didn't say anything.... Sorry... Current Mood: depressed Current Music: "No Me Ames" Jennifer Lopez and Marc Anthony
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Saturday, October 29th, 2005
12:55 pm	..::Ripped Shredded and Bleeding::.. ......................................................................................................................................... This is to the girl who has made love patient, kind and honest. This is to the girl who even though she got treated like crap, she stood by her all the way because she always thought "Love was stronger than that". This is to the girl who woke up everyday praying to god her woman would soon treat her better. This is to the girl who got disrespected over the littlest crap, to the girl who got humiliated in front of tons of people, to the girl who got her esteem put low, so low that she feels like nobody now. This is to the girl, the girl who cried day and night, the girl who gave up her dreams, who gave up her friends.. and most of all her life. This is to the girl that got treated like nothing but a puta, bitch.. This is for the girl who was alone, but was there. Who stopped pursuing her dreams.. all because she loved her, all because her woman always promised. This is to the girl... Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: "Listen To Your Heart" by D.H.T.
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